I am honest to goodness -ly tired! my back is aching so bad I feel like I do kargador for a living. i don’t understand why I get so exhausted like an inararong kabaw by day yet restless for the night.
For the past several days now, I have been having sleepless nights trying to count sheeps when all I see is – my bulging fuschia karton envelope full of pendings screaming for help! I could be half asleep but already planning my day ahead.
I know, right? I’ve gone mad!
I couldn’t stop thinking how I have all these “to do” and faults when I know my self so well. I know I can do better but everything is just all over the place. I am not being the best of me, I guess. And i hate it.

I do have one song to lull me to sleep though,

I am good. No matter what they say. Words can’t bring me down.
Won’t let it bring me down today…

- I like to make my own lyrics. Bakit bah? :p

I have been reading mine in what i think is a very reliable source (thanks to dear friend tash who randomly posted the site in fb) and from then on, I’m hooked.
A lot of things written under my sign has been unexpectedly accurate.

On one side, I still firmly believe that life isn’t a script. Life is always what we make it.

It’s just nice to have these things as some sort of a guide. It’s like your light post in the midst of a dark alley helping you get to your destination. It can tell when the planets are best in place to produce the perfect energy for a wise decision or when not to propose an idea because the the planets aren’t comfy in their current position… something like that.

Ok. So let’s keep track and put this science into a lil test.

This month says: feb 15-16, wear your favorite outfit at work. Use these days for a career initiative. Be beautiful since all eyes will be on you.

Just today, my boss texted…
” Hi guys. Please reserve your monday evening on feb 15, 2010. We will have our R&R and cascade. Attendance is a must. ”

R&R Cascade = a rewards & recognition department meeting. A cascade delivered by our regional head which only happens once a year!

I have no idea of what career initiative to take but I’m willing to give it a shot. Hey, if they say that the sun is beaming on me then I figured there’s no harm in believing. And since our plain, color-coded blah office uniform is far from being qualified as a favorite, i guess I’ll wear my favorite red lingerie for luck then.
Time to shine leo is playing over & over inside my head. Lol

Positivity attracts equally positive outcomes. That’s for sure.
Don’t worry sushi. I’ll keep you posted.

Everything just felt worse when officemates relayed that squinting a lot could lead to wrinkles. Being the paranoid girl that I am – I pictured myself  wrinkling and wearing glasses. I’m aging! I didn’t want it to add up to the fact that I have been such a killjoy lately for not going out  anymore. Karlo started blabbing about me being “tigulang”. I mean it’s not like I don’t go out because I don’t want to. I’m just too tired from work to move a muscle. Anyway – Plus with the current grooming policies, I didn’t want to look like miss grundy at 25. So just 2 weeks ago, I finally decided to take the blur matter to an eye specialist. The result wasn’t that bad, I thought I was just being OA coming to an Opto for over-stressed eyes. My grade was only -25. lol

However, the doctor said people with lesser “grades” are the ones whose eyes usually get tired easily since images get only a little watery to almost clear they tend to compensate. The struggling for clearer vision (squinting, for instance) causes the headache. And too much stress on eyes could eventually lead to thicker lenses. I didn’t want that either! I won’t wait for my eyes to be really poor it’d require lenses that magnify I’d be able to see samal island from my office table.  So as early as right then, I was advised to get eyeglasses but then they were able to convince me to get contacts instead since my company get to have discounts. And yes – I’m vain. I wonder how I’d look like with hazel brown eyes or catlike sparkling grey. Or the green would make me look like Barbie or was that blue. Sadness turned to excitement for a while. It seemed easy when it was doc riza who did the actual insertion of contacts on me but when I got home with the goods and did wearing it myself, it took me forever to get a lens on one eye. it’s even more stressful! The next day I spent another 20 minutes infront of the mirror, battling with a tiny plastic. Imagine me sweats all over frustration with my fingers holding my lids apart and bulging my eyes so I could fit the damn thing inside. i should have just bought glasses. leche! I had to get myself used to this. (sayang ang kwarta!) On the third day, I’m getting the hang of it but my dear ojos got irritated. lol! 

Lesson learned: There’s nothing like 20-20 vision.

For people who spend long hours in front of the computer (just like me) here are some suggestions that might help:

·         Use a screen filter to cut down glare

·         Adjust the brightness and contrast of the monitor

·         Take frequent breaks

·         Blink frequently to keep your eyes well lubricated

·         Periodically, look up from the screen and focus on an object in the distance to reduce eye fatigue

HOLA!!!

Finally here it is! I didnt think coming up with a blog name would be this difficult. It took me time ha. I didnt want it to be too difficult and complicated. That’s how it is at work almost everyday. It should just be something light and more personal.  A title could either be something that would best describe you or the things you write about.  There’s so many things I could use to describe myself (even me is confused of me) and i dont know what particular things i’d be blogging about (that would depend on the mood, i guess). banana sushi just randomly popped out of my head as i was eating banana and listening to stereo sushi. I thought it’s kinda cute and random. and that’s exactly how i want my blog to be. 

Anyway, this is especially for friends i dont get to chat with anytime i want just like how it used to.  I loved reading their blogs and i think it would be nice to let them know what’s goin on with me too.

I know it doesn’t seem to be like the “essence” of blogging but for me this is the best way to catch up! and perhaps share ideas at the same time.

i’m thrilled!